aurora borealis

The sky danced

Different colors laced across the void

Blending together,

Weaving between the stars

Creating a core memory

and perception of something new

Being born again and again

I’ve never experienced today

And I think to myself,

“I feel like I’m nineteen again”

When everyday was different

I wipe the crust from my eyes,

Groggy and still half asleep

with two babies in the backseat

And a husband holding my hand

Within a month I’ll celebrate twenty-eight

As the universe celebrates the infinitesimal

It all seems so young and old

Simultaneous beginning and end

I look up to the sky and get lost

Not knowing where I’ll be

Or what I am

“Mama I want to go home,”

echoes my son from this life

Don’t we all, baby?

Pulled back into the present

Of where I “should” be

Something outside myself needing my attention

I want to give my attention

To everything outside

Of everything

The thoughts spiraling

Where I’ll be in five years

Is this all I am?

Circling over and over again

Repitious and exploding from within

The clues are scattered throughout

Dancing in the moonlight was always my favorite song

I say goodbye to the sky stretching on and on

And another car pulls up as we’re driving away

To take our place

As we go get rest

And start another day