happy february

Happy February!

Happy February!

Okay, sorry. Lmfao.

I wrote the title, and then I started the blog post the same way without realizing, but then when I did realize I thought it’d be funny to say it a third time. But now because it’s a blog I feel like you wouldn’t get it so I’m explaining myself, but is it killing the joke?

Anyways, anyways. Hi! Happy February!
Lol, ok. I’m done.

I have been so refreshed lately. I have felt so determined and inspired.

I did my first open mic night, and read some of my poetry. Boy, was it fucking terrifying.

In grade school I won some oral language award for presenting a story to a crowd.

In high school…well, I never really went.

In college, I avoided every presentation I could. I had to present to the class twice and hated it. One of those times I did fucking awful, but the professor loved me and I got a passing grade anyways.

Now, here I am. Doing an open mic with work created by me!
Channeling that inner oral language winner, lmfao!

I am so proud of myself.

It was also a full house, but I avoided looking at the crowd when on stage and the crowd couldn’t see my hands shaking as hard as they were. I stumbled a couple times, but I did it.

Somebody came up to me and said I did excellent work, while inviting me to their poetry club. Another person gave me a note with their number and asked for the name of my book.

I will do even better next time, but I did great this time.

I also finally got back to shooting photos this weekend. I didn’t book anything in January, so I feel like this is my first photoshoot back after the holidays and it felt SO good.

I love capturing beautiful moments.

I also realized things I’ve done wrong in the past, and I feel like through each shoot I learn and grow. Better than the last.

It’s so frustrating sometimes because when I realize how I could have done things better, I wish I could go back in the past and just make my past work better too. But obviously that’s not how it works.

Oh well.

I’m just glad I know.

If you are with me in this season of life, thank you.

Life is just really beautiful sometimes.

Anyways,

Happy February.