Tuesday

oh, hey.

I’m fine.

Like, legitimately.

I feel the cloud I’ve been in dissipating, and I can see the light again.

Today, Remi requested a group hug and hugged everybody for an extra long time. He let us go and said, “I really love my family!” and man, oh man. He’s done this before, but it’s been awhile and I just love him and us so much.

I made waffles and bacon and eggs this morning, and I enjoyed some espresso chocolate bread I got from a local home baker girl, and I made my coffee — and remade it when Ryder dumped my cup on the floor. But it was delicious.

Trevor came home on his lunch and made us all lunch, and we sat in the backyard eating under the warm sun.

And I just love it.

My home has also been steadily clean, and everything is organized and nice to look at. Each drawer, each closet, each space. I could definitely go through it all again like a fine tooth comb, but I’m proud of it all.

I have a new writing desk, which is where I’m writing this, and it feels wonderful. Curled up at this cute little desk I scored at a closing garage sale for like 3 dollars, and I’m nestled under a blanket completely comfy cozy.

And I worked out for the first time in weeks last night, because I’ve been sick and just meh. And that felt good.

My parents got me a card for Mother’s Day too and that arrived yesterday.

My birthday is next week, and I just want to feel good with everything I can control. Life is just nuts. It really does feel like everything is moving faster.

Have ya’ll watched Everybody’s In LA? It’s fucking funny. And so awkward.
Because it is live, it is just hilarious. But it’s not only that it’s live, it’s that it’s live during the real like awkwardness that is people. The people he has on, the topics discussed, the fucking side stories. Pete Davidson says it felt like an acid trip, and it legit feels like one while watching. But I LOVE it. John Mulaney described it as his personal little diorama and it’s THAT. I can’t get enough.

But yeah, good shit.

And I’m in the middle of a good book.

And I’m about to look at the stars, do some yoga, read, and sleep.

Peace and love.